:: so much more ::

Wow, Christmas has come and it's *almost* gone. How fast time flies eh?

These past 2 weeks have been incredibly tiring, but fulfilling. It's so cool to see the efforts that the church put in collectively to see people being blessed through our play (The Tailor-Made Man) well, being done effectively! Am really happy to know that people have been impacted even through the play and i thank God for the lives that are changed even thru the words that were spoken.

I can't wait to see the video of our play!! *beams*

Anyways, it's been a month now at GE! And it's been great :) I'm really enjoying myself, despite the work, which at the moment, is focused on research! Why, coz we get occasional perks like, having lunch at Le Meridien! Woohoo! That was a lot of fun coz i had sushi! And on-the-spot tortillini with bacon, drenched in cream sauce plus teppanyaki ice cream for dessert. Hahah. Reminded me of Jason's chicken salad theory. God knows :D "Seek first His kingdom and righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you!"

I have a lot more to share, really, but it's only a matter of how i want to do it. Hehe. And it might get a *bit* too emo for my liking if i share now SO, i shall just leave with a wish for a blessed Christmas to all dear friends (ie. YOU!)!

May you have a blessed year ahead :)

2008, here i come!! :D

:: all we are is Yours ::

These past few days have been very interesting.

Came back from a refreshing, tried-to-tan-but-tak-cukup, awesome holiday in Phuket. Would love to tell you guys more about my trip but i think it's best you ask me personally :) If not i type sampai besok pun tak habis. Hehehehe.

I wanted to share about my personal hour-of-powers today. Where it's just me and Him. Lovely.

Been talking to my leaders, preparing myself for the work ahead. I get worried sometimes. I get worried on whether if i can cope with balancing things. God helped me manage my studies and church my last sem. And i believe that He will help me manage my internship and the beginning of new things for CC next year. I'm so excited. Wary, nervous but nevertheless, excited. I dread to think about the first 2 months of CC that i won't be around for physically, but i pray that i'm making the right choice. God, may You cause the ones that i pray for to rise up and step up to Your purposes.

I told God my worries and i learnt from Paul today...

"And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there. I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit wards me that prison and hardships are facing me. However, i consider my life worth nothing to me, if only i may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me---the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." Acts 20:22-24

Beautiful, isn't it?

Paul's so brave.

My Jerusalem is before me. And i have to say, i've experienced a few Jerusalem's. Packaged in different ways. But this is the first time, that i feel something big is gonna happen. (not undermining the previous breakthroughs) But this is gonna be even bigger than the ones before. Have you ever felt that tingly, butterfly-ish excitement of knowing something good is gonna come your way...but you know you have to prepare for that good thing to come? Knowing that there are things to do to *accomodate* that good thing?

I feel that way now.

I count my life worth nothing, if i don't finish the race that You have set me to run.

Your strength and grace, Lord. We need You.

*I* need You.

Sometimes, i don't even get my own worries cause if i make decisions based on the House, i should trust that everything else will fall into place. It has been, for as long as i can remember. And yet, after seeing and tasting that the Lord is good, i still have to remind myself that *knowing* it isn't enough until i share it.

So, taste and see. God's got some delightful stuff up His sleeves for you. You need to ask, and He'll give it to you :)

:: gratitude ::

One of the strange things about living in the world is that it is only now and then that one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever and ever. One knows it sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn dawn-time and goes out and stands alone and throws one's head far back and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly changing and flushing and marvelous unknown things happening until the East almost makes one cry out and one's heart stands still at the strange unchanging majesty of the rising of the sun---which has been happening every morning for thousands and thousands of years.

One knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it sometimes when one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset and the mysterious deep gold stillness slanting through and under the branches seems to be saying slowly again and again something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries. Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; and sometimes a look in some one's eyes.

-My Secret Garden-Frances Hodgson Burnett-

I thought that was beautiful. It describes the mornings that i've been longing for.

I've been praying since the day my exams ended, that i only wanted to pass my units.

Results came out today and God answered my prayer :) I can move on to the next semester. There really is not much i can do. Even thanking Him profusely isn't enough. How do you thank someone who does above and beyond what you imagined or hoped for? Prayer works. I can't stress that enough. And God keeps His promises. He said He will honor those who honor Him. He said to trust Him and lean not on my own understanding. He told me to acknowledge Him in all that i do and He will direct my paths. He knows what He's doing.

I may not have distinctions this time around, but considering the circumstances of having 4 papers in the span of 3 days, what with AYA awards smacked right in between...all glory is given to God for my results. No one else. It's definitely not me. And i'm just so glad i serve a miracle-working God. Like someone once shared during prayer service, "God is still into miracles". And this is a miracle for me.

Things at GE has been going great. Work is challenging but i'm learning. It's my 10th day there today and what i've done so far has been amazing. How often do you have the exposure of sitting next to CEO's and MD's and conversing with people who are handling the Nusajaya development even though i only started getting acquainted with the project on my first day of work. Lols. GE offers me that. And i can only imagine the better things to come.

Seriously, the only bad thing about working is the travelling. I can officially say that i hate the KTM. Public transport will be the death of me, what with me being stuck in the Ellie-sphere. I have half a mind to drive to KL once i figure the way to drive into KL and not get lost.

Other than that, i can say that today was a really good day. 5.30am with God, got to work 20 minutes early, checked my results and had amazing burden being lifted off, having my perspectives changed on how i should treat my internship and generally knowing what i can and should do, getting to meet new people, growing tired but tired with a purpose, spending time with great people, and to round it off, i have a week of family-time ahead of me in Phuket.

Sun, sea and sand, come on, baby, hold my hand.

Life is good.

Hope all's well with the rest of the world :)