Saturday, December 1, 2007

:: gratitude ::

One of the strange things about living in the world is that it is only now and then that one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever and ever. One knows it sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn dawn-time and goes out and stands alone and throws one's head far back and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly changing and flushing and marvelous unknown things happening until the East almost makes one cry out and one's heart stands still at the strange unchanging majesty of the rising of the sun---which has been happening every morning for thousands and thousands of years.

One knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it sometimes when one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset and the mysterious deep gold stillness slanting through and under the branches seems to be saying slowly again and again something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries. Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; and sometimes a look in some one's eyes.

-My Secret Garden-Frances Hodgson Burnett-

I thought that was beautiful. It describes the mornings that i've been longing for.

I've been praying since the day my exams ended, that i only wanted to pass my units.

Results came out today and God answered my prayer :) I can move on to the next semester. There really is not much i can do. Even thanking Him profusely isn't enough. How do you thank someone who does above and beyond what you imagined or hoped for? Prayer works. I can't stress that enough. And God keeps His promises. He said He will honor those who honor Him. He said to trust Him and lean not on my own understanding. He told me to acknowledge Him in all that i do and He will direct my paths. He knows what He's doing.

I may not have distinctions this time around, but considering the circumstances of having 4 papers in the span of 3 days, what with AYA awards smacked right in between...all glory is given to God for my results. No one else. It's definitely not me. And i'm just so glad i serve a miracle-working God. Like someone once shared during prayer service, "God is still into miracles". And this is a miracle for me.

Things at GE has been going great. Work is challenging but i'm learning. It's my 10th day there today and what i've done so far has been amazing. How often do you have the exposure of sitting next to CEO's and MD's and conversing with people who are handling the Nusajaya development even though i only started getting acquainted with the project on my first day of work. Lols. GE offers me that. And i can only imagine the better things to come.

Seriously, the only bad thing about working is the travelling. I can officially say that i hate the KTM. Public transport will be the death of me, what with me being stuck in the Ellie-sphere. I have half a mind to drive to KL once i figure the way to drive into KL and not get lost.

Other than that, i can say that today was a really good day. 5.30am with God, got to work 20 minutes early, checked my results and had amazing burden being lifted off, having my perspectives changed on how i should treat my internship and generally knowing what i can and should do, getting to meet new people, growing tired but tired with a purpose, spending time with great people, and to round it off, i have a week of family-time ahead of me in Phuket.

Sun, sea and sand, come on, baby, hold my hand.

Life is good.

Hope all's well with the rest of the world :)

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